Today was my birthday so I bought myself a tattoo. It was only appropriate to get a Bright Eyes quote. It’s two song titles and I decided to split them in alphabetical order. The lyrics really mean so much to me. They both deal with happiness and the lack of happiness and how if you can find the mindset to resolve to be happy, you will be able to (excluding legitimate disorders, of course).
“You say there are spaces
Open and wide
Believe me, there’s days longer than nights
And you will be happy
The minute you try
But you don’t try
No, you don’t try
And you speak of a fever
That burns you inside
As you explain to your mother
How you wanted to die
So she kisses your fingers
Says ‘my darling, but why?
There is so much more.’”
-The Joy in Acceptance, The Joy in Forgetting
“Why do you lay in the grass
Why do you lay there
Don’t you want to be found?
…Isn’t the sun even going to try
To find a hole In the clouds?”
-The Joy in Discovery
Now and again it seems worse than it is,
but mostly the view is accurate.
You see your breath in the air as you’ll climb up the stairs
to that coffin you call your apartment.
And you sink in your chair, brush the snow from your hair
and drink the cold away.
And you’re not really sure what you’re doing this for
but you need something to fill up the days.
A few more hours.